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06 August 2007 @ 02:18 pm
International Blog Against Racism Week: Some Thoughts on Being a Non-Academic Ally  

Greetings, all, and happy Blog Against Racism Week! At first, I thought I really didn’t have much to say about this other than ‘Hey—IBARW! Go!’, but further mulling suggested that yes, I have some thoughts. My thoughts. Let me show you them.

 

Okay, first of all, I need to start out by copping to the fact that I am not an academic. I fangirl lots of academics, and I edit for academics, and I’ve shtupped a few academics, but none of that does an academic make. And I, because I am essentially an uneducated intellectual snob, have at times allowed that to get in the way of my commitment to anti-racist activism. Which, now that I look at it written down, is incredibly high up there on my list of Stupid Shit I Have Done.

 

I do, however, at least understand the impetus for this particular stupidity of mine. Because I am all too keenly aware of how much I don’t know, and therefore how quickly I am reduced in debate to arguments along the lines of ‘because my lower belly says so, that’s why’, which, unless you are being directly and physically threatened with my lower belly, isn’t exactly the most cogent or persuasive of arguments. Now academics, on the other hand, they have references—they have knowledge and footnotes and periodicals and all kindsa thinky studies and actual published books to back them up, and they have been trained by years of arduous torture to have all of these facts immediately at their disposal, ready to be deployed against any random stupid person who wanders by with their ignorance all exposed and hanging out there. I do not have these things. I have sarcasm. And my lower belly. That’s about it.

 

But. But but but. It occurred to me that there are more non-academics out there than there are academics, and that other folks might be wallowing in the same quagmire of uncertainty that I occupy, and therefore IBARW is the perfectest of perfect opportunities for me to cobble together what thoughts I do have, strive for coherence, try to leave my lower belly out of it, and hold forth.

 

With all that said: yes, I think that it is possible to ally oneself with anti-racist activism without having a degree in social justice studies. But there are some things that have helped me in my idiot grappling with this issue—basic, simple things, yes, unsophisticated to the point of ‘duh’, but I have talked myself into sharing them anyway, so here goes:

  

One: privilege. Gotta start there.

 

For an anti-racist ally, I think that understanding privilege is as important as understanding racism. I mean, in my sad and grumpy brain, these two things are inseparable: racism cannot exist without privilege. White privilege. And if you are a white person, and you have ever uttered or thought the words ‘I am not a racist’ or ‘I don’t see color’, this is definitely worth some pondering.

 

My non-academic definition: white privilege is ‘invisible’ racism (invisible to white folks, anyway). It is the ways in which white people are advantaged, represented, and validated by pretty much everyone and everything everywhere. It is the fact that I, a white person, will never in my lifetime have to struggle with the kind of challenges, disadvantages, dismissals, or disregard that every single person of color on this planet has to deal with. It is, at its core, the reasoning behind my statement ‘all white people are racists’, a statement which somehow never fails to get some white person all riled up. But there you have it: in my world, white privilege exists. All whites are privileged. All whites benefit from racism, including ‘invisible’ racism. Ergo, all white folks are racist. Including me. And what I get to do about that is… well, whatever I can, I get to do whatever I can. Beginning with trying to understand privilege.

 

Because of my academia-envy, this privilege babble would not be complete without links; references, you know, for those of you who prefer your information to come from a sane source:

 

White Privilege: Unpacking the Invisible Knapsack

 

And here’s a link to the definition page from whiteprivilege.com, which I haven’t fully explored yet but which looks like it stopped being active back in 2005.

 

Two: learn stuff. It couldn’t hurt. Well, it does. But it should.

 

Here’s the thing: I think the key to understanding privilege (since there is no undoing it on this side of the revolution) is about going beyond what is customary, known, safe and comfortable. In the ‘duh-est’ of all my ‘duh’ statements, I will say this: racism is some ugly, nasty, vile, and seriously fucked-up shit. But what this means is that I, in service to my own commitment as an ally of anti-racist efforts, need to come face-to-face with that ugliness, both contemporary and historical ugliness, and that means finding out stuff that it hurts me to know.

 

I don’t have to be an academic to do this. I only have to be privileged enough to have access to the internets and my local library, that’s about it. I am that privileged. I can find enough information in a five-minute Google search to make myself shake with horror.

 

I don’t do it all the time, or even every day. I’m not emotionally strong enough, and, lucky me, I’m a white person, so at any time I can walk away when I’ve had enough and not think about it for the whole rest of the day if I don’t want to (better living through white privilege!) But I do keep coming back, and I do keep learning more—because if racist ignorance is going to be my enemy, I had damn well better start with my own.

 

Three: resist defaults. Interrogate ‘taste’.

 

Actually, this is about media and art: there is a whole hell of a lot of media and art out there which is by, about, inclusive of, or focused on people of color. And very often it seems that the white-person default is to ignore or dismiss it. I think of this as the ‘I Just Don’t Like Hip-Hop’ default.

 

And you know what? I, personally, don’t care all that much for Hip-Hop. But, as it turns out, I am a huge, squeeful, fangirly fan of many other musicians, poets, artists, writers, and creators who are not white. And there’s some Hip-Hop that I have sincere adoration for (it turns out I am, here as in everywhere else, appallingly picky).

 

For me, this is actually very easy: having already questioned and rejected the defaults of heterosexism, monogamy, meekness and motherhood, I am quite comfortable interrogating pretty much anything and everything that has to do with what I ‘should’ be into. To limit myself to the extraordinarily overrepresented white-centric and white-created stuff in the world: well, that would require me being way stupider than I am really willing to be in this particular life.

 

Four: my personal opinion of Hip-Hop means exactly jack shit. Just like my other opinions.

 

Number three above kinda gave me a major wiggins to write down. Here’s why: as a white person, it is absolutely vital for me to understand that my opinions of art and media by POC are utterly, completely, and totally irrelevant. As a white person, I don’t get to decide what does and doesn’t constitute good or bad art by POC. Because this art was not made for me, is not about me, and is not concerned with my particular white opinion. Does this mean I won’t have opinions, tastes and preferences? Hell no—not unless I manage to develop the kind of drug problem that my parents’ generation tended to cultivate. I get to love, hate, or be indifferent to art by POC just the same as art by whites: the key difference comes in understanding that my personal and exalted white-girl opinion as a Foremost Authority On What Does and Doesn’t Suck is, in the former case, entirely immaterial.

 

In keeping with this particular theme, I also don’t get to decide what does and doesn’t constitute racism. This is actually remarkably simple: if I do or say something that offends a person of color as racist, it doesn’t matter whether or not I was trying to be an insensitive or racist jerk—I get to take responsibility for it. I certainly don’t get to be all uppity and defensive and snippy about the tone some people take.

 

The first part of that actually goes against the grain for me, and I have to work at it, because it’s not directly in my nature to take responsibility for anyone’s experience but my own. But here’s where the insidiousness of racism and white privilege comes sneaking back in (not that it ever left us, oh no!): there are forces at work here, disparities in privilege and power, which I am benefited by, and against which my only form of resistance is to go ahead and transcend my humanistic instincts. Things are not right, things are not fair. White privilege exists, this power disparity exists. Therefore, if a person of color experiences me as a racist, well, I get to fucking own up to my honky racist ass and apologize and move the fuck on, and try to do better next time.

 

For me in particular, this concept is largely informed by my experience with sexism: a form of oppression where I am on the other side of the disparity, and therefore able to obtain more insight. And just as I really don’t want to hear some whiny Nigel tell me all about what a nice guy he is and how much he totally thinks women are just super but feminists are going to have to be nicer to him if we want to win the war, well, I need to pay attention to my own white Nigelism. And not do that. Because it fucking sucks.

 

Five: my failure to join the academic elite is my own damn fault.

 

This is a note on education, specifically, education around race and racism. It is not the responsibility of people of color to educate my ignorant white ass. I, as a privileged white chick with internets, have constant access to and opportunities for exposure to all kinds of dialogue, statistics, developments in theory, history and basic conversations (not to mention art) between people of color about race and privilege and racism. As an anti-racist activism ally, it is my job, and nobody else’s, to develop my own knowledge, to deepen my understanding of why something might be perceived as racist.

 

The key here, unsurprisingly, is listening. And not so much with the holding forth. Notice how I am flagrantly breaking my own rule here? But that’s what IBARW is for! Woot! Go nuts! Get all your anti-racist ya-yas out! Then go back and listen some more.

 

Six: if you want cookies, Martha Stewart has published several fine recipes.

 

It is entirely possible to be earnestly committed to anti-racist ally activism and still have lots of people of color ignore you, dislike you, and/or object to your presence. And guess what? Allies don’t get to resent this (see power disparity, white privilege, resistance thereto, etc.).

 

This is not so very difficult for me—I’m quite used to being considered loathsome and making people very uncomfortable, after all. The key difference is that when I do it to white men, it’s fun. But seriously, I think that this is part and parcel of being an ally: racism is some ugly, fucked-up shit. It doesn’t go away. And people of color are pretty fucking pissed off about it.

 

This is not about being liked. This is about resistance, about refusing to allow the hate to continue. Resenting the absence of cookies is not exactly blazing a trail.

 

Seven: do the stuff that’s easy. Also the stuff that’s hard.

 

So, the things that are easy for me, here they are: 1) listening, 2) rage, 3) research, 4) sarcasm, 5) creative vengeance, 6) confronting people, 7) being a dork.

 

Here are the things that are hard for me: 1) well-reasoned arguments, 2) debate, 3) keeping my temper, 4) confronting people (if I’m afraid of them), 5) granting the facts and realities of racism and the history of racism space in my brain, and 6) taking responsibility for it, for me and my life and what I do every day. Every day.

 

And I think that’s about all I have to say on this. Yes, it’s ridiculously simple, not to mention it’s been said so much better by much more articulate people, but it’s IBARW, and I’m taking advantage of it, before I go back into listening mode.


ETA:  Because I am unsavvy in the ways of these newfangledy things, I forgot to link to IBARW, so here's that!
 
 
 
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Laura Shapiro: white privilegelaurashapiro on August 6th, 2007 09:43 pm (UTC)
::applause::

You say you're not good at well-reasoned arguments, but this sure reads like a bunch of them.
cimmerians: Zoeycimmerians on August 6th, 2007 10:16 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I was saving it all up for IBARW. I won't be able to use my deductive faculties again for at least eight months...

BTW: I saw your icon for the first time the other day, and horked water out my nose. You fucking *ROCK*!
Laura Shapiro: white privilegelaurashapiro on August 6th, 2007 10:23 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I actually got the verbiage from jonquil, whose full quote goes "If you can't see white privilege, it's because you're soaking in it."

It occurs to me to wonder if the younger people in fandom will grok the "you're soaking in it" reference, but oh well.

Feel free to borrow the icon! It's entirely shareable, with credit.
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 6th, 2007 10:27 pm (UTC)
Thankfully snagged! ...and a dumb question: to credit for an icon: does that mean that if someone admires it or wants it you inform them where it came from, or are you supposed to say who you got it from whenever you use it?

You see, I am still innocent of the ways of you younger people (with your Dan Fogelberg and your hula hoops...)
Laura Shapiro: white privilegelaurashapiro on August 6th, 2007 10:35 pm (UTC)
::laugh:: I like the way Dan Fogelberg takes the place of "loud rock and roll music" in your comment, there.

Re credit: opinions vary, but for my purposes, it means putting "made by Laura Shapiro" into the "Comment" field when you upload your icon to LJ.. And sure, feel free to tell people who ask you that a) I made it, and b) they're free to use it, with credit. *g*
Noah Boyznoahboyz on August 6th, 2007 09:45 pm (UTC)
fun timing, as i am putting the final touches on a talk i'm giving next week about race and DBT. it's far from done, but i'm trying to piece a few ideas together.

i miss you terribly, by the way. i am now in CT getting ready to start yet another job. when will we ever get to see one another???
cimmerians: Faggotrycimmerians on August 6th, 2007 10:22 pm (UTC)
I so wish I could be there for your talk! If you have a synopsis when you're done, I'd love to see it, if you're willing to share (yes or no is fine, as always).

Beloved Dr. S.: I have pledged myself to not leaving my home again until I am reasonably sanguine that nobody will die while I'm gone. But I miss you (and Moose) very very much, and I'm terribly bummed that I didn't get to see you before you left.

My next tour of the east coast, however, will have additional rewards: you're only 120 mi. from my dad's house, which will make seeing you possible, if you're available when I'm 'round those parts...

Good luck with your talk--I know you're going to kick almighty ass!
crysothemis: Teyla sepiacrysothemis on August 6th, 2007 10:59 pm (UTC)
As a former almost-academic, I have tremendous respect for your lower belly. Also your well-reasoned arguments.

As for everything you've said: yes. I don't speak up enough on this topic because I'm an idiotic priviledged white chick who doesn't know how good she's got it. But damn it, yes. You've said pretty much everything I want to, and said it better than I know how to.

Things that are easy for me: 1) listening 2) keeping my temper, 3) being a dork, 4) understanding that it's not all about me (except for the part that is). Everything else? Hard.
cimmerians: Zoeycimmerians on August 7th, 2007 03:31 pm (UTC)
You know, your almost-academic status just makes you eeeeeven sexier--hubba hubba rrrrowr! :-)

I envy you your ability to keep your temper. I am made of fail at that. But I'm really good at the kind of thing (paraphrasing Jordan on Scrubs) where you say something like "Let me show you what I learned in crotch-punching class."
crysothemis: Ronon reliefcrysothemis on August 7th, 2007 08:08 pm (UTC)
your almost-academic status just makes you eeeeeven sexier

Hee! What about the part where I got fed up with the lies and the politics and the idiocy of academia and threw it all in for . . . nothing? And ended up with the most boring, pedestrian, traditional-on-the-surface life imaginable?

I actually envy you your rage. Rage, when channelled constructively, can move mountains. Or at least small hills. ;) Sometimes I think my problem in life is not enough rage.
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 7th, 2007 08:16 pm (UTC)
Ronon woobie!!!

::smooches your icon::

And: I relate. There are very good reasons why I'm not an academic, a published author or a stand-up comedian. Or all three, since I don't actually sleep. All of those reasons have to do with established systems, and the hierarchical baggage they bring with them. Count me out. I'm a University wage grunt and damned happy to be so :-)

Rage: you are always welcome to borrow some of mine, if you're in need! I has extra! It's shiny and pointy!

::adores you::
M.
veredusveredus on August 6th, 2007 11:36 pm (UTC)
I like the way you mixed humor with your arguments and therefore, hopefully for some--certainly for me it did, even though I am not white, I can certainly be a racist, the medicine will go down a little easier due to the sugar.

Plus, anti-racist ally has a bit of that alliterative bounce for me. I find myself repeating it over and over in my head.
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 7th, 2007 03:35 pm (UTC)
"anti-racist ally has a bit of that alliterative bounce"

Plus you can chant it to the whole 'Pico and Sepulveda' rhythm, do hip-wigglin' tango steps, and freak out everyone brave enough to go into public with you. ...you know, if you're into that sort of thing :-)

Must go put on something jingly now...
nigita: Roll with the gangstersnigita on August 7th, 2007 12:51 am (UTC)
You are not afraid of making enemies.

Now, if I hadn't been up to 4am reading your fanfic, I'd have a clear head and a few minutes to spare to comment more substantively. For now, though, suffice it to say that I am surprised to hear that you are a white woman, and I mean that as a compliment.

Love the Zoe icon. I suck at making them and have wanted one of her for about a year. Any tips on where to look, or whom to ask?
cimmerians: Zoeycimmerians on August 7th, 2007 03:41 pm (UTC)
Not afraid of making enemies--nope. I rather confidently expect it at this point. Lets me know I'm doing my job :-)

On fanfic: y'all gonna make me blush again, shucks. I hope you get some sleep soon!

On the Zoe icon: you are welcome to snag mine, if it works for you. I am the suckiest of icon-makers, but if you have a Zoe pic and some text you want to use (and are willing to lower your icon-craft standards), I'd be happy to take a stab at putting one together for you.
minnowminnow1212 on August 7th, 2007 01:20 am (UTC)
This is awesome, and also very funny. I believe White Nigelism will stick in my head.
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 7th, 2007 03:42 pm (UTC)
Beware the White Nigel!

...that's actually frighteningly true. :-)

Thanks so much for letting me know it worked for you!
M.
Lost Angeleno in Chicagojethead on August 7th, 2007 01:54 am (UTC)
I miss your lower belly!
cimmerians: Zoeycimmerians on August 7th, 2007 03:43 pm (UTC)
I miss every single inch of you, so there. I understand you have the thunder and lightning today, you lucky lucky lucky person! We have sunshine and fire. Not anywhere near as fun.

::kisses you passionately::
M.
hey love, I'm an inconstant satellite: racism capyjinian on August 7th, 2007 06:01 pm (UTC)
This is great, thanks for posting it!
cimmerians: Zoeycimmerians on August 7th, 2007 06:07 pm (UTC)
::smooches your Capybara::

Thanks so much!
Seekerzeza3 on August 7th, 2007 11:27 pm (UTC)
OMFG.
Plez may I steal use and credit to you your icon?
hey love, I'm an inconstant satellite: racism capyjinian on August 8th, 2007 12:14 am (UTC)
Re: OMFG.
Ha ha, sure. I was inspired, how could I deny the result to the world?
Seekerzeza3 on August 8th, 2007 01:54 am (UTC)
Re: OMFG.
Yay!
You have made my day. Night. Whatever.
Sarah Roarkdoctorcaligari on August 7th, 2007 08:28 pm (UTC)
Feh -- any jackass can go to college for 6-10 years and come out an academic. (I ain't saying it's not work -- it is if you do it right -- but some people do nothing but mentally jack off the whole time and still manage to come out with a degree.) Being brilliant is a much rarer asset, and you know you are.

If anybody on the thread would like a book recommendation in keeping with IBARW, Ronald Takaki's book *Iron Cages* is a thought-provoking exploration of whiteness and white privilege, with particular emphasis on its development in the 18-19c (as you say, whiteness being an all-too-invisible subject most of the time, so it's one of not too many books on the subject)...it's ground that has been retrod since by other writers, but the best thing about it is how he examines the crucial ambivalence and insecurity that underlie white privilege, with specific examples from history.

I'd recommend bell hooks' writing as well (although I can see from Melis' usage of 'interrogation' that she's either read hooks already or read someone else who picked up the usage from hooks -- that's one of my favorite coinages/repurposed vocabulary items of hers, that and 'decolonizing one's mind' :-)...
cimmerianscimmerians on August 7th, 2007 09:30 pm (UTC)
Hello, Preciousssss--

I've added the Takaki book to my giftie list--thank you so much for the rec!

As for bell hooks... hells yes. Love her all over with a fiery passion!

Thanks for commenting, and Happy IBARW!
cryptocryptoxin on August 7th, 2007 11:53 pm (UTC)
This post is just awesome -- thank you for writing & sharing this!
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 8th, 2007 02:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for your encouragement and support! I enjoyed your IBARW post tremendously.
ky_fried_womanky_fried_woman on August 8th, 2007 10:27 pm (UTC)
This post is so amazing. I would love to share it with my students. It so concicely and with love and humor states things that academics take up whole books to say and still don't quite make sense in the way that you do. Bravo! xox
cimmerians: Faggotrycimmerians on August 8th, 2007 10:45 pm (UTC)
Wow! That's... I am verklempt. By all means, if it is of any use to you, please share away. I would be deeply honored.

Also: I do intend to respond to your lovely e-mail, and I apologize for being a woefully dilatory correspondent!

::smooches you and snorgles you gently::
M.
Daniel B. Holzman-Tweedholzman on August 9th, 2007 06:30 am (UTC)
Hi there. My master's degree kinda makes me an academic, if not on the topic of race issues. My parent's and grandparents and great grandparent's degrees kind make me an academic from a long line of academics, and I've got something to say:

Man, have we got you snowed but good.

Don't get me wrong: academic inquiry is very valuable, and definitely has it's place in life. But it's a race academician who will cop to the fact that the degrees, the references, the big pomo words, and all the rest of what makes academics academic is just a way of puffing ourselves up to feed our ego when we try to say things as important as you've written here. I've seen people write books trying to say what you said and not do as good a job of it.

Way to go.
cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 9th, 2007 04:50 pm (UTC)
Whoa--I'll never trust an academic again! And also: I imagine that I would be entirely cured of my academia-envy if I came from a family of academics. As it is, I have only the one academic parent to whom I serve as a living embodiment of shame (GED, anybody?) :-)

Thank you for your kind words. You made my whole damn day!
Lila Futuransky: teyla against racismheyiya on August 12th, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC)
This is a really great post, clear and concise and up-front in ways my academic-trained (well, in training) verbosity can only dream about. Some things are better not filtered through an endless web of citations, you know?

Thank you!

cimmerians: Teylacimmerians on August 13th, 2007 02:44 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for letting me know it seemed clear--that made my day. So often when I talk about this (because of my lack of citations, y'see) I feel like I just descend into this babbling wrathful Tongue Of Outrage. Much obliged for the vote of confidence!
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cimmerians: Rononcimmerians on July 1st, 2008 05:33 pm (UTC)
Happy upcoming IBARW! Much obliged.
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